i got scolded by my doctor in the afternoon. she told me that i should have realized all my ccas and studies are giving me too much stress i can handle, causing me to have not enough sleep. and i'm not exactly eating healthily nor regularly. made me realise how screwed up my body is.

and i'm totally tired of communicating with the outside world.

woaaaahhh~~~ i really hope my parents are not angry with me, or thinking i'm trying to run away from home. this is the 3rd time in this week i've been sleeping over at xy's house. i just can't seem to get the motivation to go home myself. cos i have to go to school early in the morning almost everyday, so i see no point in travelling back home. probably if i had a dad like ff, then things will be different; i should have more self-discipline like seriously. now i understand why ff is so strict with us, and cares so much about the minute details. but still... he should take life a bit more easily.

had dinner and shopping spree with lu and xy yesterday. but lu and i ended up quarelling again. she just kept feeling that i should change my appearance but i dun like changes. i mean, if you are really my friend, why do you keep forcing me to change and do things that i obviously don't like? i mean it's not like my appearance and the clothes i wear are damn hideous. the part where she always thinks she's right and she has a good taste in things irks me a lot.

haiz...forming comm is a big problem. i'm having a headache..

sian.. back from cac main comm trip.. time passed so fast. how i wished the ride home from kl would just continue all my life.. the first class coach had everything i needed except for a toilet, it even had a ktv room lah (how power is that).. fell asleep while listening to mariah's concert, and by the time i woke up i couldn't pia finish Sky of Love.

my uppest buddy is the best~

just came back home from yj's house. had a super sudden and random sleepover, random truth or truths. it was quite funny, thinking about who we want to marry, date, flirt, murder and spit on. i believe it won't take a lot of time for all the unglam photos to be uploaded on facebook.

sometimes, i will think that i'm the root cause of all my friends' misery. it's hard to not compare yourself to others i guess, but in the course of it, you will most likely hurt yourself. i really want all of them to be happy, and not be angry with the world and themselves. but that is really going to be tough. running out of new topics to talk about. why is this happening? but i still feel so comfortable with them... and i think i'm really neglecting my family nowadays. i'm hardly home before 10pm and by the time i reach home, only winky's waiting for me.

i wonder if i will really enjoy myself in malaysia.

haha today has been a weird day for me. and i really did this on impulse, i mean the setting up of this supposedly private blog. and it was supposedly my ''uppest'' buddy who helped me think of this lousy blog address. probably i was really sian diao today. can't imagine i took almost the whole day to set up the blog skin, but it was worth it i guess. really loved the final product.

probably will post more emo entries as the time goes by. anws don't think anyone can see this. yeah!