i'm totally sad and depressed today. and a bit pissed with the whole world.

am i really a super insensitive person or wad? i feel like i'm slowly pissing everyone off, feeling so rejected now. do i have to censor every single word i say, think carefully if wad i'm gonna say is sensitive or gonna hurt the person. i know i look serious, but 9/10 of the time i was only joking manz. cant they just take it easy? and when they hurt me, i'm supposed to just keep quiet, be gracious and not throw tantrums. i'm sick of not being able to be myself and express my views freely. i believe if they are my close friends they will understand me. i do know my limits okay.

and another thing that's pissing me off. why cant the guys just act normal. they are all avoiding me for obvious and all the wrong reasons. you all can just go ahead and hate me. leave me alone. FOREVER.

life sucks. especially when it's raining.