as i'm writing this, i'm waiting for my cup noodles to be ready.


this entry may very be the longest entry i have ever written on this blog. i'm not very good with words but i'm trying to use this blog to sort out my thoughts. i guess many people may not have realized but i have my bouts of low self esteem, emo-ness and pessimism. and this is probably one of the worst.

do you know how hard is it for someone to like you but so easy for someone to hate you? though this whole incident is just too stupid and idiotic to even care, i have to admit that i am still very affected by it. i wasnt doing it for myself, isnt it obvious? if i had the choice to turn back time i will still say the same thing to you. so many people are using it and i cant let one irresponsible group of people spoil everything. you all are adults, i suppose you all are mature enough to think, not only for yourselves, but in the perspective of others. but it doesnt seem to be the case. i dont think i've done anything wrong, if yall think that your hatred for me is justifiable then very well go ahead. dun be some two-faced creature who can only bitch behind ppl's backs. if you really think you have a point, why not just come out and talk, rather than resorting to such immature act.

i dunno how many ppl in this world i can actually depend on. i'm actually very sick of this whole thing. why not you come and take my post. i'm tired of always being sandwiched in between ppl, being bitched, and i totally hate the limelight. i just want to be myself. no one will ever understand unless they go through this themselves.


big girls don't cry. you can't bring me down so easily.