like what wq said: you'll only learn to treasure your friends more when you are away from them. and this is really true. this is how i'm exactly feeling right now. being with people whom i'm not as close with is really hard. i'm probably the same old introverted me after all these years.

but i'm really touched to hear that from wq. i think she made a point there and for all those who have heard my whinings for quite some time i really thank you all for being there with me even though we're so far apart from each other.

i'm now going to learn to take things slowly one step at a time. i may be blur and there are many things which i don't know how to do all by myself but i want to have the confidence and faith in myself to do them. that's my eventual aim for this long journey ahead.